i thought we were over. i thought that was my last chance and i blew it. i thought wrong.

flirting endlessly like this, however does this come about? we wont ever stop.

sometimes i wonder if you think of me when your with her. i just wonder. sometimes i think about you. i like the idea of you, most deffinately.

and until your mine, ive found someone to replace you. someone to hold my hand, someone to kiss my forehead. someone to hold me when i'm cold. hes fine, but hes not you. his eyes arent the same. its just not the same, but it will do.

i'm not saying i'm not happy. i'm very happy, and i'd be lying if i said otherwise. i guess what i'm trying to say, is i miss you, and i hope one day i have a second chance.... or sixth.

Tell me goodnight. Tell me goodnight, and sing me a love song while your reading my mind.

last night felt perfect. it was nice. i liked it. (:

I went from always answering my phone, to never answering my phone.
I went from being open, to being closed off.
I went from being okay, happy, to being depressed.

The only bad part about me being depressed, is that I dont tell anyone, so no one knows.

Whats been with me lately?

I've decided that sense I couldnt talk to anyone about how I felt, I had to start keeping a journal. I got to the point where it was hard for me to talk to anyone, even my best friends.

Crying yesterday, did me no good. I find myself ridiculous sometimes. I really miss him. Everyday. And those thunderstorms that remind me of him.

I thought maybe I could give someone new a try, but look where that ended me up at... five months down the drain, wasted in hope, with another girl by his side. The same damn girl he left for me.

What is it with guys I like, and girls named Megan?

I saw her in foodlion, while I was buying him a valentine, along with everyone else from taco bell as well. I figured it was a sign. it had to be.

Get your head out the clouds Madalyn, your just gonna choke.

Baby, I don't need you near as much as I want you.